There was a season in my life where I was basically living a double life.
I’m not going to get into every detail right here, but I will tell you this. Someone I loved was genuinely hurt by it. And when I started to turn back toward the Lord, she struggled to believe that God’s mercy was really available for me after what I had done. I don’t blame her for that. Honestly, I wasn’t fully sure myself what God was going to do with that chapter of my story.
But looking back now? I see it so clearly. And I want to share it with you because I know I’m not the only one who has sat in the weight of a past season and wondered whether it was just too much.
Coming Back to the Prodigal Son
I kept returning to this story in scripture during that time, and I still come back to it now.
The prodigal son. A son who took everything from his father and wasted it. Who ended up so low he was desperate just to eat. Who rehearsed a speech on the walk home because he was certain the best he could hope for was to be treated like a servant, not a son.
But his father saw him from a distance. While he was still far off. And he ran to him.
No hesitation. No waiting for the apology to finish. No list of conditions to meet before love was restored. Just running. Just joy.
That’s the part that undoes me every time.
When you come home to the Father, there is not a single reason He will say no. His love doesn’t have a ceiling. It doesn’t have a condition attached. It doesn’t get smaller depending on what you did or how long you were gone.
Nothing Can Separate You
Paul lays it out in Romans in a way that should stop us in our tracks. Nothing, no height, no depth, no principality, not death, not anything in all of creation can separate you from the love of God.
Nothing.
So if you’ve been sitting in a season, a past mistake, a painful chapter, a version of yourself you’re not proud of, and you’ve been telling yourself that maybe you’re the exception, that maybe God’s mercy reaches everyone but you, I need you to hear this clearly.
You are not the exception.
His love reaches you exactly where you are, exactly as you are, in the middle of whatever you’ve been carrying.
Your Story Isn’t Over. It’s Being Redeemed.
Here’s what I’ve seen happen, in my own life and in the lives of women I’ve walked closely with. What the enemy meant to use to disqualify you, God uses to qualify you for something far more specific and powerful than you would have stepped into otherwise.
The season you’re most ashamed of often becomes the very thing that makes your calling so clear and so undeniable.
Not because God is okay with sin. But because He is that good at redemption. What He restores, He restores fully. What He redeems, He makes more beautiful than what was there before. Your purpose isn’t canceled because of your past. It’s being shaped by it, refined through it, and it’s going to be restored in a way that honestly takes your breath away.
I’ve watched this happen in my own story and I believe it with everything in me for yours.
You Don’t Have to Figure This Out Alone
If you’re in a place right now where you’re trying to reconcile a past season with the calling you feel on your life, or you’re genuinely struggling to believe that who you were doesn’t cancel out who God says you are, that’s some of the most important work you can do.
And it’s not work you have to do alone.
This is at the heart of what I love doing with women in coaching. We get into the real stuff. The identity questions. The places where old shame quietly runs the show. The gap between knowing what God says and actually living like you believe it. I’d love to walk through that with you.
Connect with me here and let’s talk about what coaching could look like for you.
And if you want to keep sitting with conversations like this one, the podcast is a good place to continue. Laughing Over Tomorrow is live now. Come listen in.
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